Why Christians Frustrate Me

I have a ton of Christian and nonChristian friends. I shall speak of the Christian ones. It is interesting because they are all different. Some are devout Christians who don't drink or party or smoke or anything. They are also the Christians that are hard to talk to and connect with. Then on the opposite end of the spectrum there are the Christian friends that drink, party, and do other acts that defiantly oppose some of the foundational aspects of the Bible. These people are approachable, but you cannot take them seriously since they say one thing, but do another.

I fall some where in the middle. I am conservative, but approachable.

What annoys me about the first end of the spectrum, is the fact that I feel like the happy go lucky Christians don't know what it is like to be me. I can't connect with them, because they are never willing to listen to me. If I mess up I feel like they will condemn me to hell and be done with it. Like they forget grace and mercy and trade it in for perfection and conformity to this prototype of the perfect Christian. It bothers me immensely, because I don't want the world to hear the word Christian and think of this.

Then the other end is the Sunday morning Christian who acts like Christ during the service, but gets caught doing sinful acts during the rest of the week. Now sin is sin. We ask forgiveness and God forgives. Then we don't do it again, but doing it over and over again defeats the purpose of forgiveness. They know nothing about God or the word of God apart from a couple verses and could probably name more alcoholic drinks than books of the Bible. I don't want the world to see this either.

Now, I know there are people thinking that the world should look at Christ. My objection to that is the world can't see Christ. So we are supposed to be His ambassadors. We are supposed to guide people towards him and let him do the rest. Sadly, we can't do this with a holy than though attitude or slumped from the sweet parties of last nights. So what are we to do?

Me? I'm a Christian, but I feel like on this spectrum I lean more on the side of the Sunday morning Christian. This is hard to admit, but God knows it is true. I know it is true. I just fail a lot. I try to be good, but recently I just feel like giving up and letting myself fall.

Sad. Ain't it.

Ultimately, my goal would to be strong in the faith, but approachable. Loving and kind, but not judgemental. Open to different people, but not different beliefs. Honestly, just more like Jesus. I mean Christian or non-Christian Jesus is a great role model. Loving, compassionate, self-sacrificing. I mean how can you hate that?

How patiently I wait for the day
When all knees will bow
and tongues will praise Your Name

I know the time is coming
Every second makes it near
The Heavens will open and all will hear

Hallelujah!
God is King!
You are Awesome!
The Ruler of Everything!

All shall pass away
Materials won't matter
Hearts filled with sorrow
Will now overflow with laughter

Children of God
Each from many nations
Will marvel at His splendor
His might and His creations

Hell will not prevail
Demons are defeated
Satan will fall
Because God is the Lord
The Master of them all

We shall ascend to the sky
Arrive at the pearly gates
In the Lambs book of Life
There will be our names

We enter in and cross the many mansions,
The streets of gold and see all the saints
Then we would stop
Because we just saw His face

I Can Only Imagine starts playing
And I begin to sing
Cause now that I am here
I don't have to imagine anything

I feel joy peace love
and All that is within Christ
Because though my body is gone
I have a wonderful life.

Falling on My Face, Forgiveness in His Grace

I fallen once more
I tripped up myself
I've now hit the floor
I have nothing else left

I try to get up
But stagger back down
Even in my sin
I ask, "Lord can you hold me now"

I'm always falling on my face
Staggering to the ground
Screaming oh my Lord
Please just hold me now

You never fail to find me
Even when I am in a far and lonely place
There is peace within your presence
And forgiveness in your grace

Running to You hard
Longing to know you again
I gained this wretched world
And lost my Greatest Friend

I'll give it up for you
I'll leave it all alone
I'll drop all of my sin
Because Father you know

I'm always falling on my face
Staggering to the ground
Screaming oh my Lord
Please just hold me now

You never fail to find me
Even when I am in a far and lonely place
There is peace within your presence
And forgiveness in your grace

I'm always falling on my face
Staggering to the ground
Screaming oh my Lord
Please just hold me now

You never fail to find me
Even when I am in a far and lonely place
There is peace within your presence
And forgiveness in your grace

I ask for you
I seek after you
I knock you come through
And find me

I ask for you
I seek after you
I knock you come through
And find me

I ask for you
I seek after you
I knock you come through
And find me